Adventures in Psychosis

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

A Wonderful Night

Thanksgiving dinner went off without a hitch. I was so happy when I said goodbye to everyone and I realized that I had gone the entire time without any sever symptoms. I stuttered here and there and heard a voice for a short time, but other than that, the night went well. I got to see my family... Sign in to see full entry.

Nervous About Dinner

In a few minutes here I’m going to head over to my uncle’s house for Thanksgiving dinner with the family. To say I’m nervous would be a major understatement. I haven’t been around any of them since my symptoms started to be where they are now. I’m not sure how I’ll explain myself if I suddenly have... Sign in to see full entry.

I am Thankful

Good morning everyone, and happy Thanksgiving. I hope everyone got a good night of rest in preparation for some big time mouth stuff this afternoon. I thought I might take advantage of the holiday to post some things that I’m thankful for, and thought that might also make me realize there are so... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

A Good Evening

This evening has been remarkably calm after a day of almost complete chaos. After getting home from work I spent a while in my room trying desperately to make my mind calm down and stop swimming after the pressure and stress of today. It seemed to be one problem after another at work this afternoon,... Sign in to see full entry.

My Unending Execution

I mentioned my darker thoughts in one post, and I wanted to elaborate on them somewhat, seeing as how I can’t seem to stop them right now. It’s possibly part of my OCD, but I cannot stop thinking about something, even when it disturbs me. I thought back to a movie I saw where someone was beheaded,... Sign in to see full entry.

Losing The Will To Fight

What I would give right now to be able to think clearly. I’ve accomplished almost nothing this morning. I did get one thing done, but other than that, nothing. I spent about an hour trying to get myself started, failed miserably, then just spent 30 minutes or so working and finally got something... Sign in to see full entry.

Trying to Work

When my boss came in this morning I really wanted to tell him about how crazy things have been for me the past couple days, and try to explain why I probably won’t get my work done before the holiday, but something inside told me not to, that he wouldn’t understand. I’m afraid he’d think it to be an... Sign in to see full entry.

Our Journey

Good sleep managed to elude my last night, although I did manage to get about 3 and a half hours worth. My day at work has just begun and I’m already feeling nervous and anxious about how it will go. Before I get lost in the maze of confused thoughts and tormenting hallucinations, I just want to say... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Hearing my Doubts

Another day gone by and again nothing has changed, things are still the same as they were the day before. Tomorrow I’ll go to work and spend 9 hours stressing about things I cannot control. I’m having trouble thinking straight right now so I’m typing pretty slow and I probably won’t say much. Before... Sign in to see full entry.

Stories to Tell

I’m trying to make myself realize that this has to be a turning point in my life. Things have to start to change, and change fast. By keeping myself in my current situation I’m doing nothing but driving myself farther and farther from sanity. Within just the past week I have noticed a tremendous... Sign in to see full entry.

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