Sleepless Writings

~*~ He walks into my life like a beacon of hope Confusing me more with every step My plans have changed yet the outcome looks good I’m a habitual planner and so I am thus confused I see the love that once did shine Forgotten how it felt when he was not mine And though our relationship is growing... Sign in to see full entry.

~*~ I had wished for so long and longed so intensely Dreaming that you could be with me My heart ached for you for months at a time And still a year later I wished you were mine And then I moved on, my mind wandered past you I began thinking new thoughts though I never forgot you And one fateful day... Sign in to see full entry.

I’d love to stay and banter a bit But I fear my mother would have a fit I have household chores to attack in the morn’ And I’ve been up all night for 6 days in a row I would love to stay to blog and comment Unfortunately I feel like cement As so I bid goodnight to you all Click my blogs! You don’t... Sign in to see full entry.

HALF ALIVE My eyes like dried out raisins Yet only squinted from lack of the sun My mind, all but vacant, swarming with thoughts of what must be done My body, a tortured rag of a human My joints like rigor mortis, I lack proper function My energy lacks focus, what little that I have Should I... Sign in to see full entry.

This was written before January... Late december or so. I was really upset because I hadn't seen my boyfriend for two weeks and he was getting home the day I was leaving for Florida... bringing that to 3.5 weeks.... etc etc.. I think I've grown up a LOT since then... but it's only been 7 months....... Sign in to see full entry.

WE TALKED We talked for hours About love and life; Fears and strife; Of lies and deceit— The paths to defeat Of ignorance and of bliss About the loved ones we miss We shared our outrageous goals, Our true hearts’ desires There was laughter and there were tears We talked of those we both hold dear... Sign in to see full entry.

~*~*~ All I need is all I cannot have All I want is so far away All I am is a shell of what I was No light in the distance to guide my way A cold, lonely soul surrounded by heartlessness So far away from all that I want in life My health deteriorates with each breath that I breathe My probation... Sign in to see full entry.

Lying in bed feeling aged beyond my years Pain in my abs, Confused from ear to ear The meds have me feeling like a snail on two feet I’ve been so tired all day and I don’t want to sleep My dreams are un-sober; unsettling to say the least All of this stress has me falling to my knees I miss my Joey.... Sign in to see full entry.

So many times in my life has stress overcome my resolve So many times have I fallen in love So many days spent in the arms of my Joey So many dollars spent; smoking my money So many thoughts poor in all at once About where I am and what I want My mind is a ping pong ball ricocheting off my skull... Sign in to see full entry.

Though I miss the way we kissed We can’t put ourselves through this It just comes back to you Every single time I can’t get to close I’d only want to make you mine I miss your hugs, I miss your smile But I was crying all the while I changed myself for you Didn’t know what I could do You loved me so... Sign in to see full entry.