Random thoughts and actions

So after my frustration last night...I sat down and wrote him a letter. I think it came out pretty well with how I felt and how I thought. He read it but he didn't reply..which I guess I didnt expect him to do anyway. I just don't know what else to do with him. I don't know why I fell for a guy who... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm at such a loss as to how to explain my feelings. How to explain them in a way that he will understand where I'm coming from and where I want to be. Why do I care so much? Why am I crying when I think about it. Why can't I just get him to understand and to believe. Sign in to see full entry.

Why does my boss barely bat an eyelash when I ask to give my associate a 75cent raise....but I only got a 38 cent raise because thats all they could give me. You see I'm not a real money driven kind of person. I suppose I would be if I had more incentive to stop having free and relaxing time. I... Sign in to see full entry.

So I have to thank blogit for my dream last night. You see it was one of those haunting dreams where everything is a bit weird and everything from my subconscious has shown up. I hate when that happens. At some point during my dream I had someone give me a ride to work. It was a friend of mine and... Sign in to see full entry.

So I was singing along with the radio on the way home. Butch Walker did a song called screwed a long time ago..and it kinda sums up my day. He did the song because screwed is such an interesting word..when you think about it. I mean you can get screwed. You can get screwed over. You can screw... Sign in to see full entry.

Okay..so it may sound strange coming from me. A mild mannered Canadian girl who lives on Long Island. Someone who is into music and sensuality...but I'm finally going to just tell the world..I watch Dog the Bounty Hunter! Okay..so let me explain myself before you all start trying to get my blog... Sign in to see full entry.

So as I explained in my last blog...my biggest challenge is this whole being single thing. I enjoy having my own space and all but I miss having someone close that I can kiss. I guess I am a bit of a physical person. So I started getting back into the whole online dating world. I hate it for the... Sign in to see full entry.

I am trying to remember everything that was going on when I left blogit. I had just gotten out of a relationship. I started a new one but wasn't completely sure about it. I was struggling with graves disease. I was struggling with a lot of stuff actually. I went to a name change for a while -... Sign in to see full entry.

and ready to blog away!... I'm still amazed that my blogs are existing long after I forgot about them..but yet here they are..with even a few readers. So over the course of the next few days..I'm going to update what has been going on in the last year...catch everyone up to speed..and then we can... Sign in to see full entry.

It has occured to me that I should let people know that I have moved to another name and blog. I developed a following here and plan to continue as Okie at some point in the future. The problem is that I found myself stuck into something that wasnt' allowing me to be myself at times. I felt like I... Sign in to see full entry.