Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Goodbye
The day after my 18th birthday I recieved a call "Your mom is in the hospital.....No, they don't think she is going to make it....You'd better come up now." I don't even remember who called. I just remember getting on the plane and then walking into her room at the hospital. I felt for sure we were...
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Sunday, October 24, 2004
Circle K
That summer my brother and I just wanted to make her happy. She lived in a little silver bullet trailer, on a piece of property my grandparents owned. If one were to find oneself destitute, I can think of no other place than this to be. The sea, the Sun, the mountain, the woods and family right with...
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Monday, October 18, 2004
New Digs
I am in my new digs on the second floor. I have finally cleared all the boxes out of the house. I decided to make the spare bedroom into my office. The phone company came today to install the phone jack that makes the final transition possible. The room is big enough so that I can put an inflatable...
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Sunday, October 17, 2004
Sorry If I Was Rude To You.
I feel like a complete ass. All I can say is I was under the ill advisement of Dr. Fetzer Merlot. Did I have to put it in writing? Just a thin soap bubble of babble in my pool of wine. Did I have to put right next to my little sugar crisp of a story. Crumbs, crackers and bubbles.....I guess it could...
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Saturday, October 16, 2004
oh yea
drunk as dung - fuck off - who are you. jeese like I give a flying fuck anyway. and I don't so shut the fuck up. you ~ fuck you ~ mutha fucka ~ damn....... fuck off. you fuck~~~~~ fuckin' leave me the fuck alone AND STOP LOOKING AT ME Dork ass. waisted~~~~~~~Shit ~~~~~I'mwaisted~~~~ shit~~ what the...
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Friday, October 15, 2004
Hood Canal Summers
Exploring the woods on Hood Canal in the Summer was a kids dream come true. We would spend hours, literally all day long, until it was so dark we couldn't see or we could faintly hear someone calling us back in for supper. We would create extravagant, make believe worlds where the trees were...
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Saturday, October 9, 2004
God - Look at my hands. I don't know whose hands these are, but somehow they are attached to my body. I haven't bitten my nails in 20 years, but for some reason, since we moved I have been removing the nail with other means than the nail file. While I was pregnant and nursing they just grew like...
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Friday, October 8, 2004
I was crushed ... for a moment.
I just can't get that damn comment out of my head. It rings over and over..and over and over... That is all it takes. One little nonchalant, off the cuff, seemingly insensitive comment for me to completely obsess, sometimes for days, over something. I'm sure when he wrote it he wasn't wiping snot...
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Wednesday, October 6, 2004
He IS Mad She At His Kibble!!!
The dog just growled at Sophie. I am so mad and my adrenalin is coursing so hard and fast through my veins my arms feel numb and my ears are ringing. All along I have been concerned that he may have some sort of adverse reaction to being kicked out of my lap and replaced by the baby. After all he...
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Monday, October 4, 2004
I Remember The First Time I Thought Smoking Was Beautiful
I remember the first time I thought smoking was beautiful. My brother and I went for one of our Summer visits to my mothers. This particular summer she lived in a little silver bullet trailer parked in a vacant lot down the hill from my grandparents house on Hood Canal in Washington. We would sit...
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