I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE -BY LUBY 123

Sunday, March 8, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

My older brother took daddy to the hospital they bandaged up his head. Doctor Martin asked daddy what happen. He said he was working outside in the yard cutting a limb from a tree and it fell and hit his head. Everybody knew everything in this small town now everyone knew mama had got revenge. Everyone at he emergency room was giving mama silent shouts for they had seen her many times. Daddy was quiet for a few days and he did not turn his back on mama, probably not even in bed for awhile. I did... Sign in to see full entry.

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

After talking with Lucas my addiction I realized i am getting stronger. My voice did not sound so desperate. I was glad to hear from him as usual, but something had changed with me. Was it that now that this man was attainable i was not as interested. Getting close to the middle, time for me to run. The phone rang as it did constantly since I had been here. It was a voice from the past, at first I did not recognize it I say Hi, Do you know who you are talking to? Not sure I remember is this... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, March 6, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

Hearing his voice made me realize that i need to finish my business and get home. He said i miss you i doubted everything this man said. My decision to stop and relax was solid. I said i miss you also. Do i need to come down there and help? What can i do for you baby? He had already done it just my saying it. What have you been up to? Did i really want to know. Missing you typical player answer good i respond. Being with this man was going to take some getting used too. I could not go about my... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE PAGE 2

After my visit with Leon i decided to return my phone calls. I had missed my addiction these few days we were apart. I had come to realize that as unsure as i am of where we stand i need this man right now. I left from Leon's feeling disappointed that things somehow stay the same even when you change. Leon was still attempting to control me with what he thought was what i needed. When we were married he always consider himself first,then his job,then his first family and then me. Today again he... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

I left church and turned my cellphone back on there were several calls from my addiction. I decided that I would wait till later to return them. I dialed Leon number I was sure he had not changed it. Leon was constant if nothing else. He answered I said hello it's Luby. There was a dead silence and he said yeah I know. I'm in town for a few days to take care of some business and realized we have unfinished business. Well I was waiting on you to finish it he said. I know Leon but we can untie... Sign in to see full entry.

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

Sunday, March 1, 2009 I decided I would go to church hopefully it won't fail in it's been awhile. I called my cousin she is always in church on Sunday. She maybe in somebody bed on Saturday night either her man or yours, but on Sunday morning she's in church. I think that's because, the preacher is there and they have a male preacher. She answered, hey girl I heard you were in town. Yeah,came to take care of mama. How is she? We are going to put her in the home. Well, it for the best she put her... Sign in to see full entry.

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

Being down there in the house you were raised in and seeing all the familiar things. It help you to realize that your are not immortal that you too someday will die. This is not the place and i am glad i am not of this world. Meaning that i know all that is here will be here when i am not. Seeing my mama a frail little woman wasting away so sad.Yet it is wrote we should rejoice the passing of life. Caught all up in my mess with my addiction,Leon,mama boy number one and everyday living i wonder... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

After the flight home and not calling my addiction to say i was going i was feeling empty. Ray picked me up he was feeling guilt about mama. I tried to assure him it was time for her own sake.So tell me player what's happening with you? We did not talk much on my last trip. Ray was always involved with some scary women. When i say scary i don't mean ugly they are usually very attractive. Emotionally they are scary they want from him what he will never give that they are the one and only. He was... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, February 27, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

After dealing with my addiction and my friend rushing to marry. I realized that we waste a lot of time in relationships(a romantic or passionate attachment) that are doomed. A friend of mind in a relationship(a romantic or passionate attachment) they have been together fourteen years.Still not married have one child she is eight. Both are seeing other people on the down low.She is holding on to him because she needs the security he gives. See he does everything a husband does or suppose to do.... Sign in to see full entry.

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

Mama boy number one and those wicked step sisters of his thought they were better than me. I don't know why, we lived on the same block,went to the same school,hung out in the same places. His father was the town drunk(that apple did not fall far from that tree) his mama the town whore.Once when we were in a heated argument i shouted out hell we could have been brother and sister. What you mean he asked. Think about it my daddy was a rolling stone and your mama rolled all over town. His ma'am... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

I guess the moment is finished for the day. The phone rang it was Rita. What's up girl have you seen Lane? Yeah, i saw her shopping at Macy's. She was wearing a diamond engagement ring. So is she really going to do it this time? She said so,when? In April. So how does the ring look? how big? how many karats?Well for a girl who shops at Macy's for shoes and buy expensive perfume why she would buy her engagement ring at Wal-mart i don't know. Girl, stop i been trying to call her. Lane is a... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, February 23, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

I pulled myself together and decided i was going to stay in the moment. Last night was great for the first time i let myself think middle scary. The phone rang dam i guess the moment is over.It was Joan a voice from the past. Joan and i was in Panama together when i was married to mama boy number one. The one that went from the breast to the bottle acholic bottle that is. Joan and Terry i thought had the perfect relationship(a romantic or passionate attachment). Terry was a player, Joan was a... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

Our love making seemed more intense, he said to me we make love tonite. I looked at him working my way down. From the top of that completely bald head, those luscious lips to those muscular arms to that firm tight ass.This man was in great shape our relationship (a romantic or passionate attachment) had definitely changed. He said baby you drained me i wondered if i had some help keeping him drained.Girl you are going to need to trust this man or let him go.He fell asleep i laid awake and looked... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

After the intervention with the ladies i decided to answer some messages. My addiction had called i was taking time to answer that one. Trying to decide how to handle the giving up of the player card. Do i want him to really give up the player life style. Jada had seen him out with a young lady. Jada's a lot of things a liar she is not. I called to check on mama status there was improvement. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Not a good holiday for players they go into hiding. My addiction won't call... Sign in to see full entry.

I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE

Arrived at the restaurant, Lane and a few other ladies from I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE club were there. So are you really going to do this marriage,middle thing i asked. I don't know she said and i could see the indecision all over her.She was smiling alot which meant she is unsure. Lane wears many faces she protects herself or hides behind them. But when you are alone and the day is turned off there is no hiding.So why so soon? What's the hurry are you pregnant? No, i never did the middle i want to... Sign in to see full entry.

Page: << First  < Previous  1  2  3  4  Next > Last >> 

Headlines (What is this?)

Referrals - About Us - Press - Terms of Use - Privacy Policy - Conduct Policy
Copyright © 2017 Shaycom Corporation. All rights reserved.