Wednesday, July 8, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
While Rita drove i sit in the back and relaxed. I thought of my addiction a surprise what else do i think of. I don't know a day since i met him i haven't thought of him. I wondered if he was as upset about my quick exit as i was about his. I should call him i am acting childish. He was there for me...
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Sunday, July 5, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE
The ride was quite for awhile Rita was asleep and Lane was singing along with the radio She stopped for awhile to question me about player.So why are you running away and not calling back? Why don't you just call him you know you want too. What has he done is it because of the trip and you not...
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Sunday, June 28, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
Lane was full of questions about player as she calls him. So, did you hear from player?Why didn't he call or let you know he was going out of town? Lane player as you call him does just what ever he chooses and i don't know why. Yes, i spoke to him before i left and he did not explain where he was...
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
I called Lane and Rita to let them know i was leaving to pick them up.I was excited about this trip not only because it would put some distance between me and my addiction. Also i needed to finish my business with Leon and dissolving our marriage. Rita called me in the car. What's up girl i am on my...
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
As i packed for my trip. I felt a sadness in my soul like i had never felt before. I was hurt and relieved at the same time. Hurt because he had not called or told me he was leaving. Relieved because he called when he came back so i was still a part of his life as it was. I had made up my mind i was...
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Sunday, June 21, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
I will admit that i wanted to see my addiction. I had missed him and wanted to know why he had not called me or even told me he was going on vacation. I was very upset with him but i did not let him know. Why? couldn't i show my angry, hurt or resentment toward him. Always got to be the happy little...
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Friday, June 19, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
I NOW REALIZE THAT MY THEORY THAT MEN LIVE IN THE MOMENT WOMEN LIVE IN THE FUTURE TAKE CARE OF HIS MOMENT HE WILL TAKE CARE OF YOUR FUTURE IS TOO TRUE. For sure my addiction lives in the moment and expects me to take care of it when the need arrives. Do i live in the future? Should i stop wanting a...
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
The week went by slowly by hump day i was certain i had been dumped. I was angry and mad at myself. I had decided that i would go down to visit mama's grave it was close to Mother's Day next week. I knew he would be back on Saturday and i did not want to be available. I asked Rita if she wanted to...
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
It has been week i have not got a phone call not even a text message. Not that he would text me anyway. I had to avoid all the questions from the ladies on last evening when we went out to dinner. So Lane asked heard from player? Rita as usual was down on player i told you so going strong. So i lied...
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Monday, June 15, 2009
I CANNOT DO THE MIDDLE VOLUME 2
On the way home i decided that i was not going to let this upset me. In reality i was feeling so used and hurt. We had just spent last night together i had told him I Love him. Is that why he acted scared when i said I Love you. Did he know he was leaving? Of course he did i stopped the car i could...
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