Friday, August 12, 2005
Marriage..the ever pulsing vein.........grr................................
God, i dont know whats the matter with me...i should have known, i mean i really, truly should have known this would happen! it always does..yet i continue to feed my poor poor heart with crap that isnt real! My marriage is not a reality people! its a curse! its a freaking curse! why is that people...
Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, July 14, 2005
HUSBAND VS. WIFE...WHY WHY WHY.............................................
Did you know that every night i get to not only watch a fight, but partake in one as well. Ok, not a physical one, but a verbal one. I dont know what to do with myself anymore. I am just so frustrated not only have to help repair my marriage, but learning to live in this new environment. Each night,...
Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
I CRIED ON MY BIRTHDAY....HOW SAD..........................................
Ok...maybe my blog isnt as dramatic as my title...but..it felt that way at the moment. So...let me explain how my birthday went...and mind you..yes, my 21st birthday...in Italy. Does everybody remember good ole Murphys Law? "What ever can go wrong will go wrong?"... yah, thats how my day went. Let...
Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, July 11, 2005
I HAVE NO WORDS............................................................
Ok i do..i do have some words....but i think they are not as descriptive as their true form or meaning is. So, if you read my other blogs, you would know that today i am 21. Happy Birthday to me, yay me..right? So why is it that i really feel nothing? I feel disappointed...and not for the reasons...
Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, July 7, 2005
Settling in................................................................
Ok, So here it is..im here, im in Italy..Sicily actually...im just now sleeping somewhat normal..its been about 3 days. I find myself clinging to my husband like ill never see him again. We havent fought once, which is good..normally we fight every hour. The first night, i woke up at 12..and started...
Sign in to see full entry.
Sunday, July 3, 2005
Tic Toc, Tic Toc...........................................................
Thats the sound of the clock clicking right there...well actually its just in my head because i use a digital clock...but ya. 35 minutes and counting, and i will be in the Cab headed to the airport! I can feel the butterflies in my stomach because im so nervous...i still remember when those...
Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, July 2, 2005
Arrividerci!
Ciao! People! Tonight is finally my last night here in VA...tomorrow afternoon i will head off on a 14 hour journey to Europe! Yippee!! finally! So im really nervous actually...this will be the last time im stateside for quite awhile...but i think it will be worth it! So, i dont know when i will be...
Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, July 1, 2005
Today is not such a good day, at least physically
So, i was sort of a Bitch to jayson today. I woke up this morning with my monthly treat...and i have been having terribly cramps. It comes and goes, but mostly, it comes. Ever since i was 12 i have had the luck to get extrememly bad cramps the first couple days. It was worse when i was younger, i...
Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Another good day...they just keep on coming!
Today i found out that jayson managed to get us a 3 bedroom house in Sicily, im really excited about that. We get to move in on july 19th! and its going to come fully furnished until our belongings arrive! The community we will be living in is gated, so it has security. It has its own rec center,...
Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
I love rainy days!
Today it was pooring rain in VA. Surprisingly this makes me happy..i love the gray sky, and the water.When im at home, i like to stand out on the balcony and feel the water hit my face. I dont know what it is about the water hitting my face, it makes me feel clean, free. Anyways, i have 4 days to go...
Sign in to see full entry.
