Catharsis by Text

So, I can't believe I'm still thinking about him. It's been weeks for god's sake. So, I actually wanted to text him today. We had my foster son's birthday party last night and sadly, I missed Mario there. I wanted to send him this text... Johnny had his birthday party last night. We missed you!... Sign in to see full entry.

So, it's been more than a week and I had my best text messages written before I began this blog, damn it. I'm now losing steam, but still having conversations in my head... They're a bit sadder now. Progressing thru the stages, I believe. Showering this morning, I had this thought... So, M, you were... Sign in to see full entry.

So, M used to send me a text to say - Good Morning Sexy - every morning. I miss that text. It set the tone for my day - knowing someone woke up thinking about you. So, if he really has this instinct - why couldn't he be the guy? Wanted to send him this txt this morning, but decided to stop myself...... Sign in to see full entry.

Hmmm - I'm going to write this here so I don't text him. - So, M, I miss your daily am phone calls. Tho after your disappearing act over the Summer, after Johnny, I mostly saw them as a pain and didn't really want to talk. It felt forced. - So, it appears that mentally, I'd already given up on you.... Sign in to see full entry.

It's been a few days after a breakup of a not-quite-a-full-year relationship. Started out fun, but tapered out and was largely non-existent at the end. I let it hang around because it seemed better to have it out there than nothing at all. Wrong! It still hurts and I didn't think it would. So, the... Sign in to see full entry.