Get thee to a therapist!
Everyone is they way they are, and acts as they act for reasons: damn good reasons, to some part of the mind or heart. They probably came into play in childhood, through lessons not even remembered consciously. We all are equipped with a kind of 'auto-pilot' and these reasons, and the beliefs behind them, are the maps that the auto-pilot navigates by. Therapy can help reveal these reasons, and help you to reconsider them as an adult, and find new, better ways to solve the problems, the reasons... Sign in to see full entry.