what is normal?

....kind of.....i was 'good' all day....(what's up with being good and bad based on what we eat?).....and then i went to tcby with my daughter.....i got a small yogurt with sugarfree/fat free hot fudge.....i got a quart of yogurt....sugarfree/fat free yogurt to bring home along with a little... Sign in to see full entry.

i didn't like the therapist i was supposed to go to....i went once and canceled after that, so i'm doing this on my own....scary Sign in to see full entry.

i am starting to remember what it used to feel like to be me......i actually ate two pieces of pizza small and had coldstones tonight......we went out for ice cream....my dad is in town and i can't remember the last time i didn't make an excuse to not go out with everybody to eat.....i do feel like... Sign in to see full entry.

ugh.....why couldn't i stop eating last night?.....i go from the highest form of discipline to complete insanity.....it leaves me feeling sick, out of control, depressed, sad, defeated....nothing good.....i vow again today to walk down the road of normalcy.....not take those turns either way.....i... Sign in to see full entry.

so...it's been a long time coming but i finally admitted to my doctor, my family and i guess myself that i have a totally problem with food....i'm not quite sure when it started and how i got here but it has become such a burden to carry around....i have 4 kids and always gained a lot of weight with... Sign in to see full entry.