GIVING LIFE A SECOND CHANCE

Normal day today. Still haven't touched my laundry yet but whatever. The washing machines aren't going anywhere. My roommate randomly appeared to spend the day here? Not quite sure what his deal is but again... whatever. I've seemed to stop caring about the little things again. My ex girlfriend sent me a text out of nowhere. She asked if I had called her parents again. I haven't... her Mom called me earlier this week. It's funny how my ex can say that I didn't care about anything but me... but... Sign in to see full entry.

So I went to bed at 2ish. Fell asleep trying to watch the movie that I started watching the night before. I guess if I'm lucky I'll actually finish it today or tonight. Any way I woke up this morning wide awake which is extremely odd. I'm never a morning person and it takes me forever to get up when others wake me up let alone when I wake up on my own. But this morning it was like bam, eyes open, not even groggy... didn't make sense at all. What was worse... IT WAS 9 AM! Ugh, on a freakin'... Sign in to see full entry.

I was sitting around my room thinking... why exactly did I choose Self-Help as the category for my blog? That's the road I'm on, and that's probably my biggest topic in life... but this blog stands as more of a journal. It's meant to be read by others. Maybe one day someone reading it will get as much out of it as I did living and writing it. It's now a Journal. To hell with self-help. I've spent most of today in the room fooling around online. Funny how fast the time flies by. I wrote a new... Sign in to see full entry.

Today went as planned. I slept in, woke up and lazily did things around the room, ran my errands, and in between all that wrote a bunch on Blogit. So far it has been a rewarding adventure. The entries I've written are long but I'd like my readers to get the who what when where and why. I've thought of my Mom a lot today. I wrote a poem a long time ago and later posted it on poetry.com. It was about the love and advice she had given me. For some odd reason I decided to look it up, and that poem... Sign in to see full entry.

My recruiter lied... A LOT. Not only did he bullshit his way through my paperwork, but he also said that each company had maybe 2 or 3 18Xs (Special Forces Candidate). I inprocessed B Co. 1/50th with over 100 18Xs. We weren't as rare as we thought. I stayed in the gray as much as possible. Tried not to be noticed... did what I was told... but like always people were slowly drawn to me. Not always for good reasons but I tend to stand out. Mom always said that hair on the back of men's necks would... Sign in to see full entry.

I just wrote of my year in college. I'd like to add one last thing about that. A lot of people say they go to college and figure out who they are. I figured out who I wasn't, and who I didn't want to be. I joined a landscape crew for a summer job when I got back from college. Chris was the foreman. Matt had been there for 2 years or so. The best way I can describe Matt is to relate him to a pitbull. Slightly shorter than me but a block of solid muscle. Compact and powerful... with an inner rage... Sign in to see full entry.

I said I'd write about the little world that I had created. But now that I think about it I'm not quite sure how to put things into words. I guess I'll start with the why... and maybe it'll flow from there. I mentioned in my introduction that we moved a lot when I was a kid. I got tired of making new friends. I got tired of going from big city life to renting a house on a 1,000 acre farm in Kansas where I stood out like a sore thumb with kids who had known nothing but pigs, cows, corn and wheat... Sign in to see full entry.

After my first entry into my first blog ever last night I spent a while reading and commenting then popped in an old movie, grabbed a Killians Red and called it a night. Didn't make it 20 minutes into the movie or halfway through the bottle before I was asleep. Wouldn't imagine that it being 4am might have anything to do with it? Haha. Well this morning I woke up and the first thing I thought about was Blogit. Had anyone read what I had written? Didn't anyone comment?... Do I even care? Well, it... Sign in to see full entry.

My name is Casey and I'm a 22 year old soldier in the United States Army. I'm currently awaiting training in the Special Forces Qualification Course. Those of you who know what that is should know that I've said, for the most part, as much as I can say about it. For those of you who don't know what it is... GoArmy.Com SF Training should point you in the right direction. I'm stationed in Ft. Bragg and have been here since August 22nd of 2006. But that's enough about the present. What's important... Sign in to see full entry.